It's quiet in here

Nothing much to say just .... from now on I will spend all my time making life worth living; therefore, I'm probably not gonna update anything at all on this blog until my life work is done :) I have to stop writing fiction and songs, this is sad even to me T^T but it won't be more than two years. By the end of 2013 I will be back on track for writing again :D Singing is what I still do though; I just don't have much time to make a vid and upload on youtube & add them on my playlist. Lots of songs have been sung by me, all cover of course.

If you'd like to know what I've been doing, you can catch up with me on my "Breaking Free" blog. I possibly will update on that more often than here. Bye xxx

Updates & Dull Day In The Summer

Hello Blogger!! Do you miss me?? It's been forever since I was here to update my own blog. Working hard and seem not to have free & fun day. I've got some info. to announce. First, I finally finished writing my very first story. I'm so happy about it even though still in process of word error checking :) I also have written down plots for fictions, been inspired by many people and stuffs ;) Therefore you can look forward to that ^^ Second, I decided to keep singing and upload on my Youtube channel. I also would put them on my playlist here so if anybody pass by can listen too :D 


Well,..that is pretty much for now. I will try to keep updating whether with the fictions or songs I write or cover. Down below is the...poem?...I don't know if i can call it that lol Just explaining how to feel lately and especially today. It isn't the best day of mine; instead, it is the opposite :/


Much love bye now <3

How can you look for answers when you're trapped in darkness.

How can you search for the way out when they say you're pretty reckless.

And the more you try, all you can feel is numbness. 

How to pull back the strength when you're completely restless.

You step forward but afraid to give it the fullest. 

They drain you out and left you here with emptiness.

You try and try but all you can feel is weakness.

Just give up and cry so you can be emotionless.

Yet these tears won't help, you are not such a heartless.

Wonder how long it last til it's time for you to own the victoriousness. 

Songs (Original) #5

LOST

Close my eyes and things seem slip away

I cannot hide ‘cause today ain’t feel the same.

Start to realize that no matter how hard I try

It’s always back to the start

People say I can be strong.

Don’t give up and carry on

Oh…would they know?

I’m a little lost and no one to hold.

A bit too scare so I just sit in the dark.

My silent cry, yes there're tears that you will deny.

And say I’m not a child.

Songs (Original) #4 - Little Secret of Heart

At times, it’s hard for me to tell you how I feel.

It’s kind of complicated; I don’t know what is real.

Seeing your face in my dreams, what is happening?

About you, about me, is there anything at all?

Like waking in the maze and I can’t find the way out.

This is not supposed to happen.

In my heart, I know there’s room for someone…

Someone…that I would like to spend my life with.

Hearing your voice, I get billion butterflies.

Do I have feeling for you? Oh boy I can’t deny.

But there are someone special, standing in our lives.

Like putting all the puzzles but you still miss one piece.

This is not supposed to happen.

‘Cause in my heart, I know there’s room for someone…

Someone…that I want to be with him forever.

And my friend, she keeps telling me that

Deep down in my heart you are always there.

Still remember the sweet thing that you said

[Speaking] 

Should I make a move? What would happen?

Are you feeling the same? Or it’s just me.

Like searching for the answer to unsolvable question,

Did it all happen ‘cause my heart believe in us?

Pretty boy, only you can give me answer…the answer.

Don’t let me hanging here and get lost in my own dream.

Just let me know your truly feeling.

It won’t hurt me; we can still be friends.

Give me one warm “HUG” before you go.

So glad that I could finish this song. Got thing to update my blog, finally. Woohoo!!! ;)  More to come. Back to work now ^^

No time (/// __T)

I have been busy lately with working and finding full time/part time job. Wanted to finish my fiction and songs so bad. I wrote unfinished two songs, but now afraid that I won't be able to finish them like the way they should be. Just because I am not in the same emotion like I was when I wrote the words down.

Keep hoping to have some free time to do so ^^

Songs (Original) #3 - Believe Me...This Is Yours

It's been a while
and I'm pretty sure that I have fallen for you.
My heart can fly
when I see the sweetest smile of yours.

 
There's no deny of this truth, just thinking of you.
The sorrow cannot beat your shining light.

I'm happy just to know you're here.
Like the sun that shines in everyday.
You're in every breathe that I take and every step I make.
You hold me tight and I get through the day.

I'm happy that you come into my life.
The angle guardian who always protects me.
This heart's no longer broken.
You've taken the pain away.
Believe me when I say "I Love You"

Songs (Original) #2

Never Ending Song  

Days are passing by and I'm dying inside.

Just imagine how my life could be so damned.

Each time I close my eyes, the sorrow shows on outside.

Like the stone's been poured by acid rain and it breaks easily.

*It's never been so hard to try to chase my own dreams.

Through the storm, the blizzard, the deadly sea.

Never once I throw my hands to the sky,

But this time it seems so different.

Never want to give up hope though I don't know how I can make it.

I wiped my tears many times

'Cause this (strong) heaviness keeps dragging me down.

I pray for God to give me strength to help me carry on.

(Repeat *)

Never want to be a girl who could never make somebody proud.

The only best things for family so the sunshine comes to meet our lives.

/Slower/

It's never been so hard to try to chase my own dreams.

Through the storm, the blizzard, the deadly sea.

Never once I throw my hands to the sky

I know this time I will make it just like what it's been all along.

And God will be there to help make me strong.

Til then I'll try with all I've got. 

Break Free 

You were my everything; the light that brought the happiness into my life.

You were always by my side, nothing could ever go wrong.

Until the day you said to me,

"You will never over come the fears"

I can't break free if you are here with me.

You are the one keep telling me that I will never be...

What I wanna be...so I can't be me.

It's killing me to pretend to be somebody else, something else.

I'll walk away so you'll stop..sucking every life out of me.